What now?

Thanks Steve for your coming out story. I suppose ours share a common "discovery" theme, but in addition your step-mom got to read about all the sordid details whereas mine was just a statement of the fact. I have that to be thankful for at least. I've heard of some really embarassing coming out stories like the boy that waited for this parents to leave home so he could watch a gay porn in his parents VCR in their room...he would've gotten away with it if only he hadn't been discovered asleep on their bed, cum-covered, porn still playing... Yeah.

Two really dumb-founding things said between us just struck me. I asked my dad in that car ride home if him or mom had ever suspected, and he said no though they had suspected about Robert, my oldest brother...LOL! I couldn't believe my ears! There's no way they could have thought he was gay....ok, well that was that time when he was 18 he dressed up like a girl for Halloween, but that was Halloween! You can't hold that against him! And the second thing was something they asked me, "Why didn't you tell us sooner?" Shit! I ask myself the same thing all the time...I guess it's because they're so fucking religious, but mostly because...well, they're my parents! And you don't just talk to your parents about sexual stuff. That's between me and the guy I'm with...or the girl that's barking up the wrong tree, lol.

So I guess it's "What Now?" time, time for me to just be me without divulging any sordid details. Hopefully by me just being me, they will see that, firstly, I'm still me. Secondly, maybe they will begin to see that it's not all about sex or religion. Dare I say, it's about being open-minded, thinking for yourself, coming to your own educated opinion and cultivating your own ideas and creatively expressing yourself without regard to tradition or social expectations. Maybe that's what makes us "queer." That's how I feel about it. And to answer mom's question, IF I could choose, I wouldn't have it any other way.